Axis / A Past That Has Not Left The Body, 2011

A research in collaboration with Historian Dr. Klaus Müller, The European Representative Of The Holocaust Museum of Washington DC.

What today is considered natural people were killed for only some decades ago. What does this mean for our life and memory today? How does form and deform our body memory?

During the Nazi regime, gay men were prosecuted and many of them sentenced and deported to concentration camps. They were seen as unworthy to live. Even after liberation in 1945, gay survivors were encountered with indifference and hostility: post-war society saw them as criminals, not victims of prosecution and torture. When a gay collective after the 1960’s started to adapt the pink triangle as a symbol of pride and resistance, there was no connection to the actual victims, no contact. Gay survivors remained alone and most of them died alone without ever telling their story.

My project is an open ‘field’ of investigations that I don’t understand yet or that I am troubled by. It is not just about the men with the pink triangle and an approximation to their past existence, but about my concern and relationship with the world in a broader sense. I am creating a space of learning about an experience that cannot be understood, if one did not endure it oneself. It is an investigation of my own identity in time, but at the same time of anybody’s identity coming from a past one has not been objected to, but that lingers over the present. The ‘spaces’ I will work with and that restrict the movement of my body in a way coerce past, present and future into the unclear relationship they are having with each other.

Concept, Choreography: Kiriakos Hadjiioannou